often i get secretly upset with myself. some things you don't show, because people mistake them as seeking pity.

other times i'm openly furious with myself. these things you can express because people don't know if they can emphatize.

there's always that need to let it out, you know? but even then we have to be careful, and learn to discern if we can have that privilege of seeking understanding, in order to feel a little better.

anyway, the telemarketing job i've taken up is so not working out. other people have been so lucky, managing to get people who are already interested. me, i get angsty old people who are plain sarcastic on the theory of free lunches.

why do they have to take it out on people?
but i guess i cannot complain because i have my own money-making agenda.

shaun and jarryl are playing battlefield now, so i'm passing the time.

i really hope my company will fire me, so that i can at least get some pay.

I blogged @ 2:34 PM